Saturday, June 9, 2012

My Fruit Stand {ripe or rotten}

On a usual night, I lay awake in my bed with my mind going 100 miles a minute.  Here goes a typical night..."return library book, make follow up appointment, hmmm.....If I moved the couch to the far wall I could add 2 more chairs, email parent reminder for Spring Fling, put Jax's tennis racket in car, bring gym clothes, hang picture, sweep porch, dry cleaners, what's for dinner, grocery store, Oh, the list goes on and on.  Thank the Lord, for eye cream!! 

Well last night I was thinking of one word, "follow through".  Okay, maybe two words.  I have been told that I do not follow through well..... At first, I was insulted but then I started analyzing. {Me!!!  Analyze!!!  No!!!!}

I should have replied :)

And finally facing the truth that I suck at "follow through" when it comes to life. I will start something whether it be a change in diet, excercise, daily thankfulness, or some other self-help remedy and I always quit somewhere along the way. It is never a life changing alteration.  Why??  {Are you thinking, "Me too!!"}

Many have heard this but I just think its hilarious and so me!!!!

So then it went from, "I have an objective, to I need plan."  I am on a mission to change my daily thinking to positve, optimistic thoughts so that I may manifest positive relationships and rewarding events into my life. I am sharing because I believe we should receive encouragement and positive reaffirmation daily from family and friends to stay on track.  Otherwise, I will be laying in bed for the rest of my life thinking about my "To Do List" and follow through. 

Then my mind was lead to the scripture I wrote in my kitchen {years ago} but was reminded of it by Jax who made me a beautiful craft with it in Sunday School.......

But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, 
patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 
gentleness and sefl-control. 
Galatians 5:22

I pondered on this verse for a couple days.  All these are suppose to be in my heart, all the time.  Impossible, I say!!! 

Life gets busy and I have found myself in a place needing inspiration hence, my reasoning for no "follow through".  Whether, theses changes are coming from hormones, sleeplessness and/or all of the-in-between called "life"....I don't know but this is my trip back home, to a place where my "follow through" has a happy ending.  

As I read all these words that are "suppose" to be in my heart.  I can't help but think that I am none of them.  I know that I have many great qualities like the "fruits of the spirit" however, I have some fruits that aren't quit ripe yet and some that need to be thrown away.  All I can say is, I am thankful for seasons, so pruning can take place.

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